I know the feeling Q.
Earlier this year, my brother-in-law, who was administering the domain of my first online presence, (and a name that suited my work perfectly- like no other could), mistakenly let the name drop while the site was down for construction and I was focused in on a new site. It was the .com for my studio name, my monicker, the name for my designs etc. My personal name continues to be a primary link to this address and vice versa. It was picked up by a large PPC 'ho, who wouldn't sell it back to me- and, I was willing to pay a premium.
Emotionally, it was akin to losing a close friend- my identity was really tied up in this name.
I have since gone w/ an alternate related name that I had already regged- one that is actually much better for SEO, more universal, and would be considered far superior by e-marketers. I like it and identify w/ it. But, I still get "twinges" whenever I think about my original domain, and what they have done to it. Have to say though, that 6mos. later, the "twinges' come around less often, and are getting weaker.
Keep your head up.