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[gr8trfoo]

so heres the deal.

after a few years of accumulating tv's i finally realized what a foolish bet i'd made. way too late. too late to even stop because my plan hinged on obtaining a "critical mass" of top shelf names and i felt i was only "half way" there. so i kept going despite my growing reservations knowing that the only way out was thru.

its really hard to know when that halfway mark is past.

so on that level i feel trapped and unless something changes awfully damn soon i will be financially crushed (great news for some who might want to grab my former holdings as they drop - if that happens).

so that maybe goes a little ways toward why i've been the sourest pus youd ever have the displeasure to run into.

some of the rest of it is my health i've been wrestling with ms for the last few years. there have been time when my legs just dont work right, my feet will sometimes cramp up in the most painful way making walking unthinkable. its not like that all the time. lately it feels like i've actually been improving. i dont use a chair and only sometimes need a stick. from what could happen i should feel very grateful that my case is still so very very mild.

and cannabis really does help. a lot! of course it makes me a bit spacely too.

maybe it came on due to accumulated stress from all the years spent on the domain hunt. maybe its the stress from my being unable to expel the grief from losing my wife (9 years this sept), still unable to stop blaming myself for her death. a good day is one when i actually can let the tears flow free- keeping it bottled up does not make it go away.

i remember more than once thinking i should do the easy thing. but then i'd never know what happens next and i'm still far too curious a soul to not want to buy a ticket for that. i think another 30 years and we'll see ourselve literally becoming one with our creation - one with the net.

lastly theres an element of improv theatre to these forums. maybe i got carried away a time or too and came off much more harsh or a-holish than i ever meant too. so for all who may at one time or nother been offended by my inability to exhibit goodwill, i apologize. if i stick around i will try my best to not be the guy everyone wishes would go away.

 

[DU]

I 'd like to tell you the story about the old man who collects wine.

I have heard the story but I prefer my updated version which is about the not yet too old guy who drinks nice wine. Don't want to spoil the ending but the story arc is definitely more upbeat.

so on that level i feel trapped and unless something changes awfully damn soon i will be financially crushed (great news for some who might want to grab my former holdings as they drop - if that happens).

so that maybe goes a little ways toward why i've been the sourest pus youd ever have the displeasure to run into.

There are many people that I know took great pleasure in picking up debris from the wreckage that was In Stealth Mode domains. There are many people that take the business-is-business approach to life and actively seek foolish buyers or try to take advantage of unfortunate circumstances. It's true that many people tend to look up at wealth ladder with jealousy and down the money snake with disdain.

These moments always make me think of thisbetter in the book)

\\maybe it came on due to accumulated stress from all the years spent on the domain hunt. maybe its the stress from my being unable to expel the grief from losing my wife (9 years this sept), still unable to stop blaming myself for her death. a good day is one when i actually can let the tears flow free- keeping it bottled up does not make it go away.

Unfortunately grief is not always something that time can heal or something that will inevitably pass - its about managing the triggers and regulating any negative forming intensity. Neither bottling it up or letting it out is a cure and nor is me commenting on it. I just hope you find some peace and that you can find an someone who can help with the process of living in the today.

i apologize. if i stick around i will try my best to not be the guy everyone wishes would go away.

This is a generic apology that will not move everyone (by any stretch of the imagination) but there's room to believe there's contrition in there. I hope that the unknown parties you've offended or been negatively engaged in can accept and allow everyone to just get along. I can tell you that personally I'd rather share the company that comes from pouring fine glass - be it with a friend or stranger - than watch an unopened bottle age alone.

I don't how your story ends but I hope it's not with a fully stocked cellar.

 

[eyedomainous]

BTW, I'm not really talking rev share, the key is to 'skin' YouTube. This week's Big Deal makes my point:

ITV.com backed (former CEO of Maker.TV's) Zealot Networks bought ViralNova for $100 Million. They mostly aggregate YouTube vids, and primarily skin them through their (1.5 Million Likes) FaceBook page.

youtube is actually paying more decent rev share now. still not what it should be but welcome to the wonderful world of scroogle. they once paid domainers handsom revshare for their solid traffic now they pay dick. i count on them to skin the small player as much as they feel they can get away with. theyll pay well as long as they have to if it means getting what they need. but hey that what almost every business does.