I'm doing my best. Unfortunately I'm loosing my dad this holiday. Words cant express how bad it hurts. I live with a lot of regrets because over the last 10 years I could have done more for my parents to help them and I didn't. I will have to live with this for the rest of my life. All this gave me new perspective and showed me how important family is. I want to make a lot of changes for her and for my self this way at the end of next year I don't have any regrets.